Time To Say Goodbye

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I've been putting off writing this blog post for a while now, mostly because if I acknowledge it, it means it real. I've finished university and with that comes saying goodbye to the friends I have made for the past three years. My friends mean the absolute world to me and to say goodbye to them honestly is breaking my heart. I have a very close knit group of friends at uni that I am seriously close to. Some I have known for three years, some two and others one. But the amount of time I have spent with them doesn't matter, because these people have become like a second family to me, and I don't know what I would do without them. I know I wouldn't be the same person I am today without them and so to say goodbye to them; even though we have all said we are going to keep in touch with each other, feels like a part of my heart is going with them. I love my friends with all my heart, and I am going to miss them so much. 

The goodbyes have already began, I have said goodbye to the one of the boys I have been friends with the longest, my best friend. Saying goodbye to him was so incredibly hard for me to do as he has been there for me for the whole three years, picked me up when I have been in tears, helped me through panic attacks and made me smile through everything, even holding my hair back when I had drank a little too much. He is also the first real guy friend I ever had. I lost count of the number of times I cried saying goodbye to him, and I know I will cry more when I see him at graduation. 

I am saying goodbye to the rest of my friends in the next few weeks, and I honestly don't think I can do it, saying goodbye to one friend nearly broke my heart so saying goodbye to everyone is something I don't even want to think about, and these friends I have only known for a single year but they have become my best friends, they make me laugh, smile and just make me so happy I wish I had met them sooner. My friends are the people I give my whole heart to, that's just the way I am and to say goodbye is like them taking a piece of my heart away. (Im soppy, I know, but I'm serious.) 

It has become so common place to see them more or less every single day, every week, and for this to just stop is going to be very odd, I think it will feel normal until September because it will just kind feel just like its the summer break and we will see each once term starts again, but that isn't happening, We will have graduated, there's no more classes to go to, no more houses to move into, no more freshers, no more uni. No more being half an hour away from my friends, being able to see them whenever I wanted because everyone was there.

Saying goodbye to these friends is going to definitely be one of the hardest things I will ever have to do. I never wanted this day to come, but I guess I was foolish to think that, always the optimistic dreamer. I know I will see them again and we will stay in touch with one another, but after this it will be different, and I don't think I am ready for that. 

Write again soon x
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  1. Saying goodbye to your friends or to your family is the hardest part of life and makes you alone from inside and I sometimes hate this feeling of being alone.



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